How Could I?

How could I write?
Choosing my happiness and fulfillment
Over You, sleeping with such an angelic face
Crying now and then
Looking at me with utmost trust
"Mommy--I believe in you... you are the best."
I don't even believe that myself.

How could I leave?
Seeing you smiling and laughing
in spite of the fever that assails you
You squeal in joy whenever I am near
My heart skips a beat.

It hurts me so
feeling you quivering in my arms
Yet you still arch your body for my warm embrace
I love you, love you, love you
Wet cheeks touching yours--
you look at me as if you understand.