O, Thank Ye, Lord...

...for such an amazing year. Many things happened, both happy and sad. Many memories were made, now etched permanently in my heart.

In the year 2004, I have finally forgiven the man that I used to love. He had wounded me terribly in the past. He contacted me again last April, only
to hurt me again. I was furious then, but not anymore. I realized he didn't really understand me. He never did. So I let it pass. And I am free.

I was honored with the arrival of Riordan Azad Zen. It was such a blessing, to hold your own flesh and blood in your arms. Seeing him so vulnerable and
strong at the same time. His growth continues to amaze me each passing day.

I realized how close our relatives and my little family. For example... When Aza was born, they showered him with gifts and prayers. I was deeply
touched.

My birthday this year was the first time that I celebrated with my own little family. It made me realize that I took birthdays and time for
granted. I promise to cherish everything--good and even bad situations.

I was blessed with new, caring friends. Their support and love keep me going and going. The old ones kept in touch, igniting cozy flames of happiness.

My partner published his first book. I'm sure it won't be the last. His creativity and talent touch no boundaries.

The major catastrophe in Aceh and North Sumatra left me breathless. It touched many people's hearts, reuniting them to pray and offer help. It made
me realize how fragile we all are, how everything could be swept away just like that. It made me think... was it a warning? A sign? For me to be more
concerned on spiritual side?

Overall, it's been a wonderful year. I can't wait to live the rest of my years, hopefully they'll be sweeter and more meaningful.

Blessed be!