Purification Is Near

Life's been pretty hectic for me recently. My sleep hours are uncertain. I start to see strange apparitions. Negativities surround me, making me judge others harshly. I say bad words more than good ones. I wear my heart and soul on my sleeves--again.

I'm lost. I feel hazy, trapped in misty paths of my creation. I'm a slave of my ambition. I want to write. Filling the blank pages with stories that I create. I long to rearrange things. Satisfying my ego with the power to "make things look better". I feel I'd die if I didn't buy nice trinkets to feed my contentment. Surrounding myself with cute little stuff to make me feel wealthy.

Some fool, I was.

A voice within me said, "Purify yourself. You've been plunging yourself in chaotic events."

I know. I didn't realize it before. Now I do.

I'll regain my inner peace. And these tears--they came not for pride. They appeared as a herald--that things will be right once more.