...felt feverish. Pharyngitis again. But in a way I'm happy. I received some messages supporting me in my writing. I got a nice package from my "sister". (If you're reading this, thanks, Dear! I'll reply your letter and sweet poem ASAP!) I can now concentrate fully on my translation.
Yesterday I looked at my partner and a pang of happiness assailed me. Whoa. I never thought I'd be this happy, this content. I have a wonderful partner. I have a cute baby. I have reliable, loving friends.. brothers and sisters. I used to think, "When I get married, I'll be happy." or, "When I have published my own book(s), I'll be happy." How wrong I was. Why should I wait to be happy? I can choose to be happy--NOW! Because happiness is a choice.
I used to face my days with insecurity. I often questioned myself. I often wished so I could be better, prettier, smarter. I used to believe that I was not good enough as a woman, that I might not deserve a partner like my ex.
In a way, I was right. I believe I deserve someone better. Someone who loves me for what I am, not for what I could be. Someone who considers me an equal. Someone who I can fully trust.
I'm feverish but deep down I'm very much healthy. And I thank Thee for that, Milord.
3 comments:
Agree!!!!........
Wise man says that our life is in our hand so being happy is not a sin
success for your new book sist... hehehe love your story so much.
God bless
Tuh kan...makanya istirahat. Jgn terlalu capek.
*nyinyir style*
don,
toilet seat nya udah tak titipin. ntar adek nya neng siska telp ke rumah. nanti jemput ke rumah nya ya! sori neh judul sama komen nya gak nyambung hehehe
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